I had to turn the heat on last night for the first time; it was damp and only 11 deg C (about 50 deg F). Brrrr! And, of course, as my hand was reaching for the thermostat, my brain was registering the costs associated.
But it's okay! I'm ready for the change of season. As a matter of fact, I'm really looking forward to Autumn.
You know what? I was even thinking last night of how much more I enjoy autumn than spring --- my used-to-be favorite season! "When did that happen?" I thought.
And then I found this:
Does this mean I have a happier state of mind? Does it mean I'm growing as a person? |
I have no idea; I simply can't keep up with me these days! I just "am". I don't have time to analyze the whys and whats; I only want to accept and enjoy.
But I do acknowledge that I am constantly changing. As a post-menopausal woman, I'm often surprised to find that I don't feel or think the same way as I had for most of my life.
I certainly can't "do" a lot of the things I used to do. And if I focus on that, it becomes very frustrating. For example, other than walking, I'm not able to exercise any longer because of injuring my back 2 yr ago. Even getting back into sweet, gentle, beneficial yoga has been painful for me. (My massage therapist says to approach my yoga like I'm an 80 yr old. Encouraging, huh!) So, it's baby steps for me. I'm trying to find what will work rather than crying about what won't work.
But maybe learning to accept what happens to us as we age is also part of the "change of life" --- just part of our personal seasons.
Not many of the leaves have changed on the trees yet, but I notice the ones that have changed. So pretty! I notice -- and take full advantage of -- the wonderful array of vegetables at the local Farmer's Market. So delicious!
I'm thinking about pumpkins and creamed soups, warm crisp breads & rolls and apple cakes with spiced cream.
I'm thinking about Halloween (and making my costume for the student party). And I'm thinking about Christmas (and checking my gift list and budget for what's left to purchase).
I changed out my summer for my autumn wardrobe last weekend, and did some necessary purging. Very cathartic! And as a bonus, I came across items that I'd purchased at thrift stores and sales and didn't even remember I'd bought. Gotta love that.
I am happy to be entering sweater and fleece weather. My colored jeans and bright scarves have come out of hiding. My favorite (and only) leather jacket is being worn and appreciated again. (And my new birthday boots are lying in wait under my bed for next month!)
Change is inevitable. And if we can roll with the punches and learn to focus on the positives of change, we can not just accept it but learn to love it. Just like I did with Autumn.