But by mid February, most of my resolutions were gone by the wayside, and life would be "back to normal", so to speak. I'd be disappointed in myself; and sometimes I'd feel guilty for not doing the right thing; and I'd often accuse myself of not having enough will power.
But then the next Christmas, history would repeat itself. On Dec 31st, I'd make another list, resolving to do better beginning the very next day -- Jan 1st. But the resolutions never stuck. And the same vicious cycle would unfold with the disappointment and guilt and lack of will power. So, I gave up making New Year's resolutions.*
To keep following, trusting and seeking Christ.
- To accept the changes that happen to me and around me; and when it's really difficult to do that, to hide myself in Him until (in the immortal words of Captain Picard) He can "Make it so!").
- To love myself more and more each day -- each additional grey hair or wrinkle, each new dimple on my at one time pretty little fanny, each ache of my knee joints.
- To pick myself up when I screw up yet again, and to keep tring to see myself as He sees me.
- To not judge myself harshly or beat myself up; because then my head is so full of "Bad, bad Sandy!" that I'm unable to hear the still small voice of God and the gentle life-changing guidance of His words.
- To complain less and smile more.
- To daily seek the wisdom of Christ.
- And while doing all the above, to ENJOY, ENJOY, ENJOY what He's given me
- My comfy home ... My friends old and new... My beautiful garden... My ungrateful children... My underpaid crappy job!
- My funny, cheerful, supportive, encouraging, lovely blogging friends (You are such a blessing to me!)
- My comfortable mattress (joy oh joy)... My hidden stash of chocolate (a dose of bliss when I need it!)... My jar of loonies and toonies (Google Canadian coinage) which equals the low price of that high cholesterol cheeseburger (with fries and a chocolate shake!!).
- The movement of my limbs as I walk (and a pair of good walking shoes)... Good books (and cheap Dollar Store glasses)... Music, music, music, always and everywhere music!
- A fairly abundant supply of hot water (and just enough lavender bath oil to last me until Mother's Day?)... A cup of hot tea on a quiet childless Saturday morning in front of the big window
OMG! There is so much to be optimistic about. Are you gagging yet?
You've got to ac-cen-tuate the positive
(lyrics by Johnny Mercer)